I think everyone at one point in life has to feel utterly alone.  It's coming off those times that make life worth living.  Becoming happy at the smallest of things like hanging Christmas lights and wearing different color socks.  That's what I look foward to in life.  The small moments that you know don't mean anything yet you still remember them forever.

Currently Listening Final Straw By Snow Patrol Run see related

I've decided to start to post again.  Or at least this one.  I just got back to Chicago from Virginia.  I think I learn the most from Geoff.  Learn two ways, what I want to do with my life, and what not to do with my life.  He is dating a boy who is the most attractive person in the world.  Seriously good for Geoff.  He's not going to get much better.  I also met a ton of his friends.  He lives surrounded by beautiful people. I guess that's what happens when everyone you live, work, hang out with is an entertainer and most likely gay.

Heading off to another White Sox game.  I'll be cheering for the Twins however.  My paps has already expressed dissapointment there.

Speaking of parents, my parents raised each of their sons to be free thinkers and to find out what we believe in.  Yet when it doesn't fall in line with what they believe they get angry and dissapointed in us.  Don't get me wrong I love my parents but why can't they just be happy with who I am and the decisions I'm making about my life, future, etc.  I hate feeling like a failure whenever I come home to Chicago.

Anyway, moving on from depressed to baseball and more depression.  Here's hoping the Yanks can pull out the wild card.  Well the division but lets hope for something attainable.  Fucking Yankees.

I love this song.  This and Damien Rice-The Blower's Daughter and Jack Johnson-Track #5 I think.

I'm ready for next year.  I'm excited to be moving on and starting a new year.  This summer has been a good one for me.  The best part about life and screwing up is that you get to move on from that.  Life gets better.  That's such a relief in knowing that no matter how depressing life is at the moment sunshine and cotton candy is around the corner.

And with that I think I might be done for now.

Cross your fingers for more fantasy victories and the death of Paul Putzy.

Currently Playing Stop All The World Now By Howie Day Take You On see related

Another school year done.  Well because of my lack of updateage, another school year and then some done.  Sorry about that folks, we had a bit of a weird time in the life of Sean and therefore he didn't know what to update about.  Consider it a little like Aaron Carter.  I was struglling because I wanted to stay true to my roots of whiteness but yet the new "thang" was rap dizzle. So I decided to make a hit song with the lines "A to the A to the R O N"!  Heck yeah bitches.

So I still don't know what to update about because I'm still kind of in this weird time.  I never thought I'd get here in my life which is weird but yeah. 

Enough of that.  I am currently the sexiest employee at the Bag N' Save Deli.  If you all want to have me slice some meat or cheese come check it out.  76th and Dodge.  Also we have a growing sexy population because Chad was hired and possibly Cogsy.  So yeah.

Geoff wants me to learn a British accent and get hired at Busch for this summer.  If I can learn one in two weeks and make a resume and audition tapes-hell yeah I'm all in it.  $400 a week, and I would get to be with my BIG BROTHER.  Oops accidently caps locked there but it looks cute so we'll leave it.  I would have to leave in two weeks though.

I'm going to be in Chi town on my birfday probably.  Plus-get to see the parents.  Negative-get to see the parents.  And I'll have other fun with other people too so that's cool.

Yankees Mets interleague rivalry starts today.  I lied to Greg.  I'm an ass.  This is the first year where the Mets have had the better record going into it.  In the words of Alex Rodriguez "I could care less".

I have decided this is going to be a summer of fun.  Who's with me?  I sure am.  Me and myself are going to have loads of fun.

I went running today.  Boy am I out of shape.  New goal by the end of the Summer to be able to run up to Memorial Park and then down through Elmwood without stopping.  I ran through Elmwood and a random neighborhood and got lost today.  That was mos def not fun.  And I was out of shape so I was tired and just wanted to get home to my bubble bath and candles.

I still love Howie Day.  He's my favorite.  Apparently everyone else in the world loves him too.  Even though some asshole people like Mike like to judge him because of his sexual preference.  Asshole.  Still hugs and kisses though mmkay.

College World Series coimng up! Who's excited.  (All of Omaha's hands go in the air).  That's right.  Methinks I'm going to try to go to a few games.  Who's with me.  "I am Sean" you all say.

So apparently I did have a lot to write about it's just that I'm a lame ass.  I'm sorry for the lame attempt at funny numerous times in this entry.  Please forgive me and go on with your beautiful Summer days.

Currently Playing Blink 182 By blink-182, Blink 182 Track 9 see related

So I think Ian Barnes might be dead.  That would upset me if my Omaha father figure such whatever I want to call him is dead.  I should call him and see if that is true.  I was up at Greg's buttcrack of dawn to go to the coffee shop.  I realized something whilst there.  Let me indulge you on that.

This year I have stopped doing a lot of Christian like things.  This is not to say that I have lost my faith, it's more out of I get annoyed by judgemental asshole Christians so I don't do a lot of stuff I used too.  This semester I have noticed a change in me.  In order to not become a judgemental Christian, I have decided to become a depressed individual who really isn't that happy with himself and forces that emotion onto others around him.  As I was reading my bible at Crane Coffee this hit me, what have I missed out on this last year?  My conclusion is this, I have stopped being a naturally loving person and one that is a faith loving person in order to become still a faith loving person but one who sort of has cast that aside and I've turned into an unhappy and sometimes judgemental guy.  Methinks I need to work harder at finding God's love and making that my own love.  I read through Romans 12 today and it made me think.  I think I'm missing the big picture at times here.

All to say this probably doesn't make much sense to the untalented reader but to the good eye it means a lot.  I need to find my happy again and I think I might know where to get it.  Now back to bed before I become white trash.

Oh and come to UNO's play in these next two weeks.  I'd like to see friends there.  As would other people in the play as would the crew?  I don't really know about the crew, I mean do you all really care if people you know show up to see you in black and backstage?  Anyways, point of story-play come see it, buy tickets if you want too.  I will reimburse you for these tickets in Seany love.  You'll get to see me in a bow tie and I promise I'll do a little jig for you that resembles the W.T. Fucklehiemier's ice cream parlor dance.

EDIT-I'm in love with the song RAIN by Breaking Benjamin and I rediscovered it's glory.  Such a good song and when you need it, it's magic is fully shown.  Thank you Wim for showing it's greatness to me.